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22nd December 2008 Monday

when im keep write blog...
that means im very moody...
im in unhappy mood...
haih...i damn hate myself in moody mode...
when i switch on this mood...
i will be moody a period of time...
oh my god...this time i don't know how long im going to in this status....

christmas soon...but i seem like no mood to plan how to celebrate it...
stay home pass?but i feel don't want stay home...
feel like going beach again....
relax-ing when i at beach...
the wind blow on my face...blow away my vexed....

my friend ask me what wrong with me...
tell the true...i also don't know what wrong with me...
i feel wanna cry...but no tears...
how come a normal human no tears to drop when cry-ing...
but i think my heart was cry-ing...bleed-ing...
this feeling keep repeat and repeat around me...
*arrrrrr~~~~~~~*
feel wanna shout....
*wonder-ing...am i get melancholic????*
lols...i think not so serious yet....
nobody know what i want....even know...
how they gonna help me??
so better i keep myself...
anyone can care of me?!?!?

im really need a arm now...
but who treat me sincere...who treat me truly...
i don't know...i don't know....i don't know....
in real life...people are reality...

im tired to entertain peoples...
im tired of my lifes...
im tired of my everythings...
im just 20!!!why i feel my life so bored...
black and white....
asking myself....am i happy?!??!
am i happy in my life?!?!?!
the answer is....im not...

the one who can make me happy...
the one who can cheers my life....
disappear in my life....

stop by here....speechless-ing...